You can’t always get what you want

But if you try sometimes you just might find
You get what you need

- Rolling Stones

from watching rockstarinxs

the sandman and i

Who would have thought that this will happen in one's lifetime? to have your most favorite author sign a book for you and in your name,

to meet him, be near him, to smell him, and hear him tell a story you haven't heard before, and get some proof for it...hehe

dreams do come true, even the ones you never even imagined.

after all, we all know how to dream but we wouldn't know what a good thing is until we get it.

"these days, i'm just expecting the sun to come up."

- venus williams
after winning a grand slam at wimbledon this year

horoscopes

AQUARIUS Jan. 20 - Feb 19 SINO ang taong gusto mong kapiling habang panahon? Mag-isip ka nang mabuti bago sumagot, dahil isang salita mo lang, agad na kikilos ang langit upang ikaw ay ayunan. Masuwerteng kulay - pink; Masuwerteng numero - 4, 13, 26, 34, 38 at 40.

p. 13 BULGAR Hunyo 28, 2005


"ayokong maniwala sa horoscope. pero, sige, pwede na rin..."


ARIES: Kailangan mong magrelaks. Mapapagod ka sa paglipat ng gamit. Pero nang dahil sa paglapit ng planetang Benus sa Mars, may manlilibre sa yong Aquarius ngayong araw. Alam niyang naubos ang pera mo sa MNG nung nakaraang byernes hanggang linggo. Ayan ay kung papayag ka. Kung hindi, maaring di na kayo magkita muli. Ayyy.


Isa na namang mahiwagang agahan kasama si Vince at Jim at sa ngayong pagkakataon, sa Mister Donut naman. Ok lang na pangit ang chicken turnover...

sayang...nalungkot si Jim at umuwi nang bigo.

breakfast on a whim

.
soundtripping again. ang ganda pala talaga ng yahoo!launchcast station ko. got reunited (peaches and herb) with michael mcdonald, al green, marvin gaye, john mayer, norah jones, etc. now, this is what i've been looking for...

today's the 3rd time i had a hearty breakfast on a whim with a specific set of my new friends (uhmm...well...relatively new friends) at work and it feels like home. i've been missing my groups of friends for the past 2 months. it's a mystery why i don't ask them out. i've been enjoying going out with 1 good friend every weekend and just enjoying good food and good cinemas (take note: not movies, cinemas hehe may lazy-boy chairs sa gateway, araneta center wuw!) and it never occurred to me even once to invite my group of friends out. it's probabaly because i know the answer. or do i?

anyway, it was pancake house breakfast for the second time. the first was on the second time we ever thought of having breakfast on a whim. haaay. kahit sa pagsusulat ko, nadadala ko pa rin ang "10 na lang para 7" na sa office pa nanggagaling na bilangan.

let's make it chronological. 1) breakfast at hotshots with sunshine and ann; 2) breakfast with vince at burger king greenbelt 1; 3) breakfast at burger king greenbelt 1 with vince, jim, corey, geb, and francis; 4) bre-- teka, ba't ako sulat ng sulat ng breakfast?! meron bang hinde?--pancake house, valero st. with vince, jim, and corey; 5) figaro, salcedo st. with vince and jim; 6) pancake house greenbelt 1 with vince, jim, and corey today. if you know how to count, you'd know who i like having breakfast with.

no. 5 was the best i've had so far. not only did it go on to lunch at NSG and game 3 of NBA finals, it did wonders for me. i wanted to write again. i got to have a good conversation in a group about nothing again. it made me look forward to something again. best of all, the destination did not matter. getting there did.

and these, are what came out of it...

Version 1
Figaro 9:20 AM

38 minutes 46 seconds before the MNG store opens. ruby is smoking her last cigarette, drinking her cup empty, waiting. just this saturday, she found herself inside the store and saw me. it was love at first sight.strange. never spared a glance at me before. now, i'm still here, waiting. she thinks i'll look better on you but she'll take a chance. she knows i will surely warm you up on a rainy day.

Love,
MNG white jacket


Version 2
NSG 10:10 AM

38 minutes 46 seconds after the MNG store opened. ruby should have been asleep by now and yet, she's still tapping on the keyboard, sending her last email, waiting. just this saturday, she found herself inside the store and saw me. it was love at first sight.strange. never spared a glance at me before. now, i'm still here, waiting. she thinks i'll look better on you but she'll take a chance. she knows i will surely warm you up on a rainy day.

Love,
MNG white jacket

pagod

lahat ng mga pc dito sa office, pagod na pagod. naka-standby lang parati. mula sa kasama kong si virgil na katabi ko na naman.

siguro nga ganun din lang ako. sa wakas ay bumigay na rin ang katawan ko. kakagaling ko lang sa sakit at wala pa dapat akong balak umabsent kaso lang nawalan na talaga ako ng boses kaya ayun, sa kaunaunahang pagkakataon ay di ako pumasok at nag-call-in na lamang, labag man sa kalooban ko. di rin ako dapat papasok ngayon pero ewan ko at napabangon pa rin ako kahit naisip ko na ang dahilan sa hindi pagtrabaho. nag-iba na talaga ako. buti at nakakahanap pa rin ako ng dahilan sa pagbangon tuwing hapon kahit wala.

wala.

wala na naman akong nakikitang maganda sa buhay ko nitong mga nakaraang araw. mahirap ang makalimot.

natuwa naman ako't nabasa ko ulit ang blog mo, peng. natawa ako sa hindi bastos mong boypren. hehe at ikinagagalak kong mag-u-up baguio ang kapatid mo. pero inggit ako. inggit dahil wala akong bagong nadidiskubreng kanta na makakabago sa araw ko.

sumaya lang ako nitong nakaraang linggo dahil nakakain ako ng masarap na breakfast sa pancake house. french toast at best tacos in town. sana maulit muli yun. hmmm makakain nga ng hapunan dun ngayon...

malamang pagod lang ako. sana masilayan ko ulit ang mga dahilan kung bakit ako masaya, kung bakit ako nag-iba. alam ko hindi kakulangan ito. nakalimot lang ako. nabubulag na naman. sana saglit lang.

naka-standby lang din siguro ako.

Guard is my witness

'
nothing happens overnight. everything else doesn't.

(so, if you want something to happen to you, be patient. and patience is a virgil. hehehe)

Mula sa "Maraming dahilan pero ang dahilan ko ay ikaw."

By Marian Hernandez, PDI, May 4, 2005, Section F1


Hindi ko mabilang ang mga araw na binulungan ko ang Diyos para alagaan ka higit pa sa makakayanan kong gawin. Ikaw ang nagturo sa akin na hindi sapat ang pag-ibig lamang. Ngunit hindi rin masama na umapaw ito. Tulad ng pag-apaw nito sa ating mga labi, daliri, balat, titig, ugat, salita at ngiti.

Ikaw lang ang nakatagpo sa tunay na ako. At hindi ka umatras o ngangahas lumayo, lalo ka pang ngang lumapit para tignan pa ako nang malinaw, sinta. Mas malinaw sa inakala mo'y malinaw na pagkilala mo sa akin.

Ikaw ang nakakaalam ng bawat hibla ng aking pagkatao, dahil sa'yo, hindi ako natatakot. Hindi ko lang ramdam ang pagmamahal, alam ko pa ito. Alam na alam. Kilalang-kilala. Tulad ng pagkilala ko sa mga kakulangan mong hindi bumabawas sa'yo, bagkus lalo pang dumaragdag sa iyong kagandahan.

Sana'y hindi mo lang alam, ramdam mo pa ito. Sana'y kilala mo rin ako.

and introducing...

it was part luck and part good decision. somehow, i was firm enough not to join my first friends at work in their 2am - 11am shift. i insisted in getting the 9pm - 6am shift. as it turned out, i became part of the most crazy and most fun team in our account, later known as:

TEAM BANGALORE (Off to Bangalore, 7May2005)

(Ruffles, Corey, Jim, Geb, Ann, Sunshine, Jayvee, Francis)

(George Stregan Jr.)

(Baby Bear : taking the picture hehe hapi bertdey!)

(Next Stop: Sri Lanka!)

*sigh

i always say, i'll know when i'm ready for a lifetime when it comes. i thought it has. but i guess, i'm not ready yet...

An April Fool

went down to
catch the elevator.
And in between,
the small talk and
the laughter, wished,
I'm not the only
April fool
tonight...

360 degrees

it took me about 360 days to turn my life around...what a thought...

"swept away"

going down the elevator of my office building has always been a treat. not only am i going to a place where i can smoke but i also get to hear the sounds of the guards of the graveyard shift. if i get lucky, i share the elevator with someone...

I never had anything happen so fast
I took one look and I shattered like glass
I guess I let it show 'cause your smile told me you knew
That you're everything I ever wanted at once
There's no holding this heart when it knows what it wants
And I never wanted anything more than to know you

I was swept away
No one in the world but you and I
Gotta find a way to make you feel the way that I do
I was swept away
Without a warning
Like night when the morning begins the day
I was swept away

And so it begins
This journey of love
The summer wind carries us to places all our own
The words of a look
The language of touch
The way that you want me means so much
And I never wanted anything more than to love you

Seeing my tomorrows in your eyes
I was swept away

I hope I wake up soon
I'm a victim of that crazy moon

The very first time you said my name
I knew it would never sound the same
Something about me is changed forever

text message from a friend:

(from a book she read)

there's no use in loving someone you can only wake up to by chance.

Norah Jones Live!

Araneta Coliseum March 12, 2005

i forgot to put an entry for this...

i want to wake up with the rain
falling on a tin roof
while i'm safe there in your arms

so, all i ask is for you to...

norah jones sang about 20 songs straight without intermission, including my favorite song, humble me. i just wish i can watch her perform again in smaller venue while drinking wine by candlelight...

Ever had the exact same dream twice?

(yeah, that's what i thought so, too.)

after 2 months,

i finally knew what to tell the jeepney driver when he'd ask me where i would go down.

for the longest time, i knew where i was going. i just couldn't tell other people, who didn't know, where it is exactly. i guess, now, i can.

On Written on the Body

As Jeanette Winterson puts it.

I wanted to look again, (I am always looking again) at love's ability to shatter and heal simultaneously. Loving someone else destroys our ideas of who we are and what we want. Priorities change, friends change, houses change, we change. Part of the strangeness of being human is our need of boundaries, parameters, definitions, explanations, and our need for them to be overturned. For most people, only the positives of love and faith (and a child is both), or the negatives of disaster and disease, achieve this. Death comes too late. The final shattering affects others, but not ourselves.

Why is the measure of love...loss?

and when will i ever get it right?

"this year"

watched serendipity, again, this morning before sleeping, so, here's the song of the day:
by chantal kreviazuk

This year,
is gonna be incredible
This year,
is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year,
I'm gonna have fun
This year,
I'll paint my masterpiece
This year,
I'll be recognized
I can feel like I'll fall in love for real
This year,
this year
January,
I'll learn to fly
February,
love's gonna find me
March, April, May,
I'll get carried away
Oh, oh...
This year,
I'll reach the pinnacle
This year,
I'll get to the top
People will ask where she gets that energy
This year,
I'm never gonna stop
January,
I'll learn to fly
February,
love's gonna find me
March, April, May,
I'll get carried away
Oh, oh, oh, oh...
This year,
is gonna be incredible
This year,
is gonna be the one
All the planets are lining up for me
This year,
I'm gonna have fun
I'm gonna have fun
Just watch me now
This year...

text message for a friend who's feeling blue:

get some rest. then, start your day like it's a totally new day, like it's the only day of the year. that way, you don't bring the bad things from yesterday and also, you can make sure tomorrow's gonna be ok.

it has been a mystery to me how to do what Ralph Waldo Emerson had written to write it on your heart like it's the last day of the year.

now, i can.