going into game 7

why wait if you can not-wait at all? my friend asked.

if you're not waiting for something, does it mean you don't want anything?
probably not.

just realized i'm not into the tao anymore but the zen. i live for the present, in the present. savoring where i am and who i am, wherever and whoever i may be, right now. no worries for tomorrow, no hang-up on yesterday. sounds like a plan isn't it?

i learned today that what i've been missing for the past 2 months is having to root for someone. i placed my bet on fantasia barrino and she won. i cheered for maria sharapova and she won. their hope seemed to mirror mine. the same thing is happening to my friend peng, i think. she's been rooting for the red sox all season. they were down 3-0. yesterday, they just made it 3-3 to make way for a do-or-die game 7. they are the underdog and i think they just might win.

now, i'm not rooting for anyone. is it time to just root for myself? will i win? what am i fighting?

the red sox will give it their all. it's gonna be a tough battle.

i will give it my all and i'm not after a title or a trophy or a prize. in life, there are no playoffs. but these times feel like i'm going for game 7.