what could be worse? a long-distance e-mail for celeste

what could be worse than a long-distance relationship? a long-distance break-up.

and all break-ups are ugly. as james ingram puts it, there's no easy way. be it sex-and-the-city post-it kind, a long-letter kind, it's-not-you-it's-me kind, or the e-mail kind. one of my college friends got an e-mail. all she could ask us was, iyak na lang ako?

oo, pre. iyak mo na muna yan. cry as long as it takes. but remember, you'll stop crying sooner or later. dedma na sa later as long as you know you will stop crying. i guess right now, for you there seems to be no consolation...

i've just been through one myself, you see. and i remember crying for two months straight until the tears dried out. it's been almost a year since and when you think about it, logically, i'm not better-off. i still don't have a job, i've been a drifter welcoming all invites for a sleepover (one can say i've been sleeping around! hehe) and so, i'm homeless and penniless. and yes, maybe i've gone a bit crazy.

but i am not alone and i am not hopeless. and certainly, i haven't lost myself. tragic as it may seem, the truth is, i am serenely happy. i don't know how or why it happened. all i know is that, by some miracle, i have never been better and in an absurd way, i've learned how to love the most that i can, so far.

i wish you the same kind of miracle. to know in your gut that you will be all right, to feel that you are not hope-less, to realize that you still have the other things that also matter the most-- your family, your friends, and your self-- and to be able to let go. live to love another another day. because, let's face it, we just don't die of a broken heart.

hang in there. i'm sure you know i'm not the only one who is more than willing to listen or to do whatever i can. i hope that thought in itself is enough to make you feel (even the slightest) better.

just think, when this chapter of your life ends, everything else will be a walk in the park. what could be worse than that? ;)